Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Family Breakfast

Mike and I have a really great system worked out where we each get to sleep-in one morning on the weekend so family breakfasts' don't happen very often. Brooklyn has been asking for the last couple weeks to do a family breakfast, so on Saturday morning we let Mike sleep in until about 9:30 and then had a fun breakfast complete with funny face pancakes and bacon. My house still smelled like bacon @ 10:00 that night (gross)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

My first blog.....ever!

So today I sat down to journal, which I only do very sporatically, but would like to be more intentional about it. I thought it would be interesting to flip through and read some old stuff and it certainly was. I came across some notes that I took while listening to Ravi Zacharius speak July-07. The title of the two messages were "Your dissappointments matter" and "Your calling matters" ( I'll get back to my notes on his sermon in a minute)
Sometimes at the hard moments in life I look at myself, 26, 3 kids, stay-at-home mommy and wonder 'how on earth did I end up here?' This is not what I would have chosen for myself. I had different plans for my life, but God called me to this and I obeyed. I didn't end up here because of bad choices, or accidents. I knew that God had a different path for me to follow than what I thought I wanted. So the question I think to myself is 'why is this so hard?' Why is that I sometimes I think that I could be doing something, better more glamorous? Why do I sometimes feel dissappointed with my life. Before I go on, I want to clarify that I love being a mom. I would never change my life for a second and I would never sacrifice the time I have with them to do anything else, But it's hard. Anyone one of you with little ones know, EVERY DAY is hard.
So while flipping through my journal one of the things I noted that Ravi said was
"My God, My God why has thou forsaken me?" 'At the very moment he spoke those words he was at the very center of his Father's will'
Wow! Now I by no means feel forsaken by God. But it struck me hard. Just because I am doing what God called me to do doesn't mean that it's going to be easy. In fact, because it is my calling, I HAVE to be more intentional. I can't just mosey through my days, just "trying" my way through. This is exactly where my Father wants me to be. He knows me better than me, He know my failures, my successes, my hurts. If I am just going through the motions, waiting for it to get easier am I really fulfilling the calling that God has placed on my life.
Sorry, I know this was kind of dis-jointed, but I'll get better, I promise!