Insanity: Day 21

So, I've missed a couple days. Not as many days as I missed blogging about it, but nonetheless......

I'm really starting to hate Insanity! Yesterday was Pure Cardio and I hated every minute of it! I'm starting to hate Shaun T, even if he is gorgeous.....Stupid mountain climbers, I hate them sooo much. (mountain climbers are on of the ridiculous exercises that he makes me do) He always says "I'm not trying to hurt you. I'm just trying to make you better" I don't believe him. I think he hates me as much as I hate him and he's trying to destroy me by crushing my soul. I want to quit, I really do. I miss going to the gym. I used to look forward to going to the gym, now I dread my Insanity workout. All day long, I put it off. And then I finally drag my butt to the dvd and do my stupid workout. Am I going to stop? Probably not. I was down 2 pounds at the beginning of the week. I'm back up those same 2 pounds though......How discouraging is that???

I'm really terrified about month 2. I thought that by this point the workout would be getting easier, but alas, they are not.

Well, that was yesterday. Today is a new day. Time to go do my Insanity.....

Insanity: Day 16

Day 16.......Plyometric cardio circuit.

Back to the grind, although honestly I think that's putting it lightly.

I was tired today. Too many late nights (catching up on Dexter), not enough food before the workout. There are about hundred things that will make an Insanity workout harder to get through. I don't know of anything to make them easier though.

Can I just say I hate mountain climbers? I hate mountain climbers. Shaun T is a hard person to dislike, but every time he says "mountain climbers" I want to throw something at him.

No weight loss to date, but as per last post, I've been slacking a bit. I do have guns though. Yep, I totally just said guns. I've never had biceps before. It shows in my workouts. I'm getting through more and more push-ups, suicide jumps, level 1 drills......it's awesome!

My legs have more shape than they've ever had. No amount of running and squats and leg presses at the gym brought these kind of results. The program works! Okay, I'll stop now that I sound like an infomercial.

Insanity Day: 15

So....... I'm ashamed. Very Ashamed. I've been a bad Insanity devotee. It's been crazy busy and I've done all the workouts, but it took me 2 weeks to get through week 2. :(

I hate missing the workouts. I really committed myself to the program, and wanted to stick to the schedule. I'm not a quitter.

I'm back on track now. I have a new resolve, but I'm also realistic, May is a super busy month. I'm going to have to find a way to make sure I'm not skipping workouts.

Today was my second fit test. I was nervous, especially because I had been off track. I did well though. There was definite progress.

Here are the results:

Switch kicks: wk 1- 39 wk 3-54

Power jacks: wk 1-48 wk 3-60

Power knees: wk 1-76 wk 3-83

Power jumps: wk 1-25 wk 3-32

Globe jumps: wk 1-8 wk 3-12

Suicide jumps: wk 1-12 wk 3-13

Push-up jacks: wk 1-10 wk 3-18

Low plank oblique: wk 1-45 wk 3-62

There it is. I'm not posting any before and after photos until I'm thrilled with the after's but I'm taking the pics every 2 weeks so that at the end I can see the changes!

Insanity: Day 10

Today was my hardest day yet. I was unmotivated in the first place. I mean I really had to force myself to put on the sports bra and tennies and turn on the dvd player. It was Plyometric Cardio and I was tired.

Once I got into it, it was a battle for my mind. I was in my own head, the little voices were saying "it's okay to stop, you don't have to do this" Shaun T was telling me to "Dig Deeper". I had to keep telling myself to stay in it, I'll be proud of myself once it's done. More voices saying "your legs hurt too bad, just stop"

Yep, I totally have voices inside my head. They are the voices of the fat girl that lives inside me. She is always trying to escape. She's the same girl that tells me to eat ice cream at 9pm while watching grey's anatomy. I'm trying to kill her. Seriously.

I made it through. I think that I had my eyes closed for most of it. I had to stay focused, I couldn't look at the clock, I couldn't think about how bad it hurt. I just had to DO IT! In turn, I think I pushed myself harder than any other day, simply because I had to.

Honestly, that is what I love about physical challenges. The pushing through, past what feels possible, and realizing that nothing can hold you back. I have it in ME.....It's like the Gatorade commercials- "Is it in you?" Yep, it totally is in me ;)

P.S. I need to buy cushioned inserts for my shoes. The bones in my lower legs are killing me!!!!

Insanity: Day 9

Yesterday was day9: Pure Cardio again. It sucks. That's all I can say about it. The boys had a field day in their room while I was busy with Shaun T, covering their hot wheels ramp and cars with soap and water, in their bedroom, "to make the cars go faster". So as soon as I finished, I had a mess to deal with.....No rest for me! (Whaaa, Whaaa, Whaaa. I'm such a whiner) :)

Insanity: Day 8

Yeah, I know. I'm guilty.....I took 2 days off instead of 1. I'm sorry Shaun-T! There was just something about going to bed at 4am and getting up at 8:30 to go to work on Sunday and doing 3 massages that made me not want to do Insanity on Sunday. The good news is that I'm back on the regular schedule and Sundays will be my day off. Today was Cardio Power Resistance. Again, I really like this workout. My arms feel like Jello, but it was amazing to me how many more push ups I could do. (tricep pushups and moving pushups.) I know I still have a whole 'nother week before my next fit test, but I'm excited to see my mad results! Peace

Insanity: Day 6

Yesteday was a busy day, kids home all day, doctors appts for the boys and my brother-in-laws birthday party last night. All day long I was hoping for an hour to squeeze in my work-out, all day it never happened. We got home from the party at just a little after 11 pm, then I had to drive the babysitter home, then Judah wet the bed and I helped Mike get him into dry jammies and back in to bed.

Did I start my workout at 11:50pm last night?.................... You better believe it!

Day 6 was Plyo Cardio again. It was a mind game for me, working out at that hour after such a long day. I pushed through. I knew that I would be proud of myself today, for staying committed. I am. Today is my off day. I had really hoped to go climbing today, since Shaun T wouldn't be punishing me. I don't think it's going to happen. My arms and my legs, are pretty well spent. I think that will be the worst part of the 60 day committment for me. The amount of physicallity required to get through these workouts, is going to take away from some of the other things I love. Like climbing, or the incline, or trail running. It's only 60 days though, actually 49 now ;)

Insanity: Day 5

Day 5-Pure Cardio, aka Pure Punishment

It was hard. My lungs didn't burn as bad as they did on day 1, so that means something. Mike was home, during this workout. He said is was hard for him to hear me like that. I was making some painful grunting noises, probably pretty similair to the ones that I've made while birthing a baby, (I'm not exaggerating here) during those last couple sets of suicide jumps, push-up jacks, and sprints.

I'm not a quitter. One time during a bootcamp, I was praying(for real, asking God) that I would pass out, so that the wind sprints would stop and they would call the paramedics and firemen would come take care of me....(ooops, did I just say that out loud) ;)

I digress. During Insanity thus far, I keep going until it is no longer physically possible and I collapse, then I get back up and get right back into it. But once I've finished the workout and I'm drinking my protein, I always analyze myself in my head and start to feel like I didn't work hard enough, that I could have done better. Hmmmm, I wonder that's all about.

Insanity: Day 4

Today was Cardio Recovery. A nice break from the crazy, cardio circuits but man, did my legs burn. Lots of squats and lunges, lots of great stretching. I actually really loved it! I just wished it had of been a little tougher and a little longer. I guess it's called recovery for a reason...... On a side note, I really must say: My eating has been on point! I was slightly de-railed but Rachel's candied nuts this evening. I couldn't help myself. I had a handful :( That's my confession. Tomorrow is Pure Cardio.....I'm skurred

Insanity: Day 3

Dear Shaun T,

Every time you tell me to make sure my core is tight, I want to yell obscenities at you. Why you ask? Well...... all my focus and attention is going towards not passing out, and mainly towards my head not exploding. So quite frankly, the idea of shifting that attention to my abs, would surely be my demise.

Seriously though, todays workout was Cardio Power and Resistance. I actually really liked this workout. It was hard, but I love the feeling of powering through. My legs burned, but once again the push ups were the toughest part for me. One day I'll be strong ;)

Insanity: day 2

So I didn't exactly get the stellar jump start on Insanity as I had planned, last week. Wednesday was my fit test. Wednesday was also the day that Mike, as he was heading out the door to CA, decided that it would be a great idea for me to try and wrangle up babysitters for the whole weekend, fly out to CA and the spend the weekend with him and the Fergusons. I agreed that it was a FABULOUS idea! So Thursday I spent all day, and long hours into the wee morning getting ready to leave all the kiddos in the capable and loving hands of 3 Awesome ladies (shout out to Tatiana, Elaina and Rachel), packing and cleaning my house. It's no small feat, as anyone with kids can testify! Friday morning, I left for CA and spent just a few short days with Aaron and April, my precious neices and Mike. It wasn't great for "Insanity" but it was great for my soul. (Aprils too, being 37 weeks pregnant sucks) All that to say.... Day 2 of Insanity was Monday!! It was the cardio circuit. Cardio Circuit is intense bursts of extreme cardio followed by a short period of rest, repeat and repeat and repeat. On a couple instances I felt as if my lungs themselves were on fire but that was secondary to the muscle failure. I've actually never felt such an extreme degree of muscle failure in my arms before. Shaun T had us doing these crazy push-ups, followed my a plank with running feet thing, jump up, back down to push ups cycle. Then directly into this plank, jump feet up to the side, back to plank, jump feet to the other side...repeat, repeat...... My arms gave me a giant "SCREW YOU! We're not doing this any more!!" and I would colapse. I always got back up, even if just for a moment. But that was the worst part of it for me, probably because I have spaghetti arms, but that will all change soon! I'll have to say, the inspiring music as you're in the home stretch works. It's as if you're in your gold medal moment and chariots of fire is playing while you cross the finish line in slow motion.....For realsy! Peace out!

Insanity!!

Day 1 of Insanity: Insane?......yes Today was only the fit test. I made it through, but barely. Once finished, I felt nauseous-nauseous like I used to feel when Mr. Walker would make us run endless stairs. Although, I'm not quite a spry, young teen anymore. I was excited before.....Now, I'm afraid